if only...

there are some many if onlys and the list is as follow...

IF Only...

1. i've completed my degree... then i can go full force in my career and nothing to hold me back
2. im more eloquet
3. im more knowledgeble

im kinda in that self reflection mode where im asking and questioning my state of being and doing a bit of reality check...

One side of me says: ''... SLOWLY BUT SURELY..." another side of me says "... the best time is never next time... its now...

and i continue to think and to wonder...